My Life Is In God's Hand

Many times when I said this phrase, I feel guilty, mainly because I am simply not living it! Many times I feel really guilty for not living every single minutes for God.

My flesh weak even when my spirit is strong. I would say that bodily desire sometimes are just too hard to get rid of because they are just so strong. Sometimes it is just a thought and then it turn into words and then it turns into actions.

Breaking the covenant with the Lord hurts me the most because many times I just want to simply love the Lord and body just can't sometimes. I have to admit that my body is very weak. God has a loving, caring and great plan for me, but I just simply don't have the body for it right now. I can't do what God told me to do because sin is blocking me and made me vulnerable. I really really want to love God and I want to live every second of my life honoring God, but it is just so hard. There is a strong conviction inside of me telling me that I haven't live my life up to the standard ever since the break started. I didn't do half the things I said I would and most importantly, I broke my covenant with the Lord.

I step aside so sin could enter my life. I cry out to the Lord for forgiveness even though I probably asked for forgiveness a billion times and yet I still haven't change it. I don't know why, but addiction is just so hard to get rid of! I need God. I need the Holy Spirit. I need to be renewed, I need to be changed I need Jesus, I need his blood to wash away my sins. IN the name of Jesus that my bondage be broken. Lord, would you please just forgive me again? I know I don't deserve it, but you are full of grace and mercy! I truly want to give my life to the Lord and God alone~! For I know that He has the best for me that no one could compare, that nothing in the world can even come close to matching it. I give my life to you God, may you purify it, may you make it whole and make it clean!

I want to proclaim again that my life belongs to God! My life belongs to God completely. Not 90%, but 100% all to the Lord, my soul, my spirit and my body. All of it. All that I do must honor the Lord, my father! It is when I am weak that shows you are strong! it is when i am poor that you show me you are rich. you bless me and you have favor upon me. I am the child of the most high God who forgives me and who loves me. I am guilty of this love, but I am going to hold on to the promise that whoever cries out to Jesus will be saved and have eternal life. Lord God, I am crying out to you, Jesus, you are willing to die for my sins and your blood is shed so my sins can be washed, by the power of the blood, I am clean once again!

MY LIFE IS IN YOUR HAND LORD!

Pressing Forward

It is human nature to not continue on some of the things that we want to do in life. This blog for example, when I started, I said I would update it everyday just to keep a journal of what my life is going on and what i am going through, but it is just so easy to forget and let other things get ahead of me.

Today, I went to a memorial service and God once again reminded me that sometimes we need to just press forward and forget about the pass. Surely sometimes people would come and they would leave my life, but I need to continue and press on and do what the Lord commanded me to do!