My Life Is In God's Hand

Many times when I said this phrase, I feel guilty, mainly because I am simply not living it! Many times I feel really guilty for not living every single minutes for God.

My flesh weak even when my spirit is strong. I would say that bodily desire sometimes are just too hard to get rid of because they are just so strong. Sometimes it is just a thought and then it turn into words and then it turns into actions.

Breaking the covenant with the Lord hurts me the most because many times I just want to simply love the Lord and body just can't sometimes. I have to admit that my body is very weak. God has a loving, caring and great plan for me, but I just simply don't have the body for it right now. I can't do what God told me to do because sin is blocking me and made me vulnerable. I really really want to love God and I want to live every second of my life honoring God, but it is just so hard. There is a strong conviction inside of me telling me that I haven't live my life up to the standard ever since the break started. I didn't do half the things I said I would and most importantly, I broke my covenant with the Lord.

I step aside so sin could enter my life. I cry out to the Lord for forgiveness even though I probably asked for forgiveness a billion times and yet I still haven't change it. I don't know why, but addiction is just so hard to get rid of! I need God. I need the Holy Spirit. I need to be renewed, I need to be changed I need Jesus, I need his blood to wash away my sins. IN the name of Jesus that my bondage be broken. Lord, would you please just forgive me again? I know I don't deserve it, but you are full of grace and mercy! I truly want to give my life to the Lord and God alone~! For I know that He has the best for me that no one could compare, that nothing in the world can even come close to matching it. I give my life to you God, may you purify it, may you make it whole and make it clean!

I want to proclaim again that my life belongs to God! My life belongs to God completely. Not 90%, but 100% all to the Lord, my soul, my spirit and my body. All of it. All that I do must honor the Lord, my father! It is when I am weak that shows you are strong! it is when i am poor that you show me you are rich. you bless me and you have favor upon me. I am the child of the most high God who forgives me and who loves me. I am guilty of this love, but I am going to hold on to the promise that whoever cries out to Jesus will be saved and have eternal life. Lord God, I am crying out to you, Jesus, you are willing to die for my sins and your blood is shed so my sins can be washed, by the power of the blood, I am clean once again!

MY LIFE IS IN YOUR HAND LORD!